The Love He Freely Gives Me

Happy Easter...a day late. I sang this song in church and the spirit just reiterated to me how much Heavenly Father loves me. He loved me so much that he sent his only begotten son, my brother and best friend, Jesus Christ, who is sinless, to suffer unbearable pain, bleed and die for me, an imperfect sinner. And Christ loves me so much that he partook of the bitter cup. Because he died for me I have a chance to return to my heavenly king where he waits for me with open arms. I love my savior Jesus Christ and I know he lives.  

Me, Myself, and I

"I wanna talk about me 
Wanna talk about I
Wanna talk about number one
Oh my me my 
What I think, what I like, what I know, what I want, what I see
I like talking about you you you you, usually, but occasionally 
I wanna talk about meeeeee (me,me,me,me-background singers)
I wanna talk about me (me,me-background singers)"

 

       So Tuesday I discovered...I talk about me way toooo often! Seriously, anytime some one says something about themselves I can always, ALWAYS link it back to me and have everyone's attention back on me. I was standing in a group of people and I had a story or song or at least something to say to redirect every single eye in my direction. So I made a goal that night to just shut up listen!!! The first few minutes I self-self-conciously continued to do it. So I dug down deep and closed my mouth. I don't know why, but it was so challenging. Finally I got myself to hush. I LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE! 

  Why are quiet people so much more interesting?!? I wish I could be that person, the person who is quiet but secretly hilarious or profound. I am no where near that. And I honestly don't think I can change into that...it's just not ME. but, I do fully appreciate those people in my life. And I should find quiet time more often. Also let others shine. Yeah life is a stage, but even the character's with one line are important. That one line could be the pivital moment in the  production and who am I to sing and dance over the top of them. it's time I learned about back stage. 

How to Choose?!?

Today is just one of those hat days. Ya know?

Kitty Kitty

  One fine day my friend borrowed my car. When she returned the window was down...permanently. I wasn't so bothered thinking oh it's fine its just stuck. it happens all the time. So I went outside and tried to roll it up, thus finding it really was stuck. The window being stuck still didn't entirely bother me. I mean, I live in the valley, it's not like it's gonna rain or anything. The next tuesday morning I was driving home, lo and behold, rain began to pour down into my window. I thought it was very ironic.

  So it'd been about a week or so that my window was stuck down. I had been parking in the garage so that nothing could get in my window. One night as I drove up to my house, my brother in-law was home. parked in the way. So I figured...no one would even want to still my car. No big deal I'll park outside. I grabbed all my valuables and went inside and to bed with out another thought of my car. The next morning I wasn't surprised as I came outside to my car still being there. I jumped in my car just as any other day. Humming and happy, ready for work. The windshield was foggy so I turned on my windshield wipers. It was then that I heard something shuffle in the back of my car. My heart dropped and I became super frightened! Of course my mind jumped to the worst scenario, I was positive there was a man hiding in the back just waiting to attack. I slowly cranked my head around to the back of my car when, POP! A bit, hideous, black stray cat popped up. I screeched!

    It's huge eyes as freaked out at me as I was at it. We sat with our eyes locked on each other for at least 20 seconds. The scroungy cat then leaped from the back of my car to the front seat right into my lap. Not knowing what to do, I freaked out like a little girl getting a nasty sock waved in her face, waving my hands as weird noises of disgust escaped my mouth. I somehow found my way out of my car and the cat bolted from me in a quick vanish.

  I got back in my car...then the embarrassment crept in. It was one of those moments when you know you're alone but you still have to look around to make sure no one saw. I drove to work laughing at myself, thinking this song. hahaha. Man I really need to get that window fixed.

Unsent..unsaid

  I don't know about you but there is a lot of things I have left Unsaid in my past. Wether it be relationships or just guys I like or that liked me. Sometimes it's not even those types of relationships. So today sometime before I go to bed I will write a letter. A letter that will remain unsent. Unsaid. Maybe to eventually be read or posted. Or not. So much that should've been said but now it is too late.

Dearest... ,
I'm sorry I never told you.
-Sincerely Chelsea Bea

An Anchor

I wanted to wait to post about this song because it makes me very emotional, and I can't even begin to explain why. I couldn't even understand in words why until...

This beautiful morning I was driving home from the Mesa Arizona LDS Temple. The sky grey and unfolding in front of me. Rain was poring in my open window. The road blackening as the water tumbled out of the sky and graced the road with it's presence. The sun rising creating a dim dusky light unvieling the beautiful brown of the dirt and green of the sparce trees. Rain like paint, falling out of the sky splashing the world with new radiant color. The smell drowning my nose with it's beautiful desert rain aroma. And this song, THIS SONG, flooding my ears. And it hit me,WHY? It doesn't matter.

Sometimes in life I ask why too often. Why am I so hyper, why am I so loud. Why do I feel sad, happy, angry, joyful? Why have I been so blessed. Why am I going through this. Why did they get cancer. Why not me? Why do I love to dance and sing? Why are girls/guys so hard to understand. Why does this song get me how it does?

well, IT DOESN'T MATTER! The beauty of life is sometime the indescribableness. It is what it is, why ask why. Life isn't always an algorithm. I want to begin today TAKING IT FOR WHAT IT IS. Life is gorgeous. Life is challenging. Life is a blast. Life is sad. Life is hilarious. Life is frustrating. Life is inspiring. Life is a dance. Life is a test. Life is what Life is. So find you some anchors and drop them in the bay. So you can just stop sailing and take life for what it is for even a moment.
Why? you may think...HEY the why doesn't always matter.

A Few of My Favorite Things

Okay so dogs biting and getting stung by bees doesn't happen to me all that often. 

In life however, we all have those things that just...get us down.

I feel that this song is brilliant! We need a list of a few of our favorite things to remind us how much we love life. 

So here is my list.

1. singing broadway music loud in the shower...or really where ever i am.

2. dancing when nobody is watching. 

3. the color yellow.

4. feeding/petting sting rays.

5. being rocked by my mom when i'm being a grump.

6. standing in the poring rain.

7. yellow roses.

8. watching 500 Days of Summer.

9. cuddling with my nephews.

10. riding It's a Small World.

11. hanging out with my daddy.

12. jammin out to really loud music in the car.

13. recieving a letter in the mail.

14. pedicures.

15. senior english

16. hanging out with Caleb, James, and Drew 

17. making someone smile.

18. strangers waving hello to one another.

19. a big cup of self-mixed chocolate milk.

20. cinnamon toast 

21. COOKIES (especially my aunt's)

22. being told "i love you" by some one i genuinely look up to.

23. new born puppies that stumble when they walk.

24. late nights with Holli

25. evening naps.

26. telling people how mush i love them randomly

27. high fives.

28. Watching moulin rouge. 

29. going to church and church activities.

30. dressing up in costumes when i clean.

31. a good game of duck duck goose. (i seriously think it's meant for grown ups)

32. playing cards on a sunday afternoon.

33. french toast, mashed potatoes, and buffalo wings.

34. looking over the city lights at night.

35. God! 

36. prom dresses.

37. Large buttons

38. The Wonderful World of Color

39. romantic kisses.

40. laying on the beach, feeling my toes in the sand.

41. dogs licking my toes.

Life is full of things I love. I could go on and on forever. So when life gets you down with just a couple of things...look at your huge list of favorite things.

What are some of your favorite things?