It's a Small Wold!

It's a world of laughter, a world or tears
Its a world of hopes, its a world of fear
theres so much that we share
that its time we're aware
its a small world after all

   It's a small world is orobably one of the most obnoctious rides in Disneyland but it is one of my most favorite rides. I was with my little group and I continued asking if we could ride that one. They shut me down every time of course. So I went on it with a different group. While I was on it I realised it's these types of simple things that make me so happy.
   Yes there's a lot of big extravegant things in life that get my adrenaline pumping and get me excited and wound up. Then there's the foods that are pleasing, and guys are fun,but really in my life the small things bring me joy.
  For instance, we were standing in line for Thunder Mountain and these people were trying to exit the line and they were about to walk all the way back up the path. So I unlatched the little rope thing for them and let them out. I was super excited just to have done that. I felt so cool.
  There are many more examples I just can't think of them all right now. Really why I love this song is because of the simplicity. It is a small world after all. Especially in my world. The small things are huge in my wold and make me so happy and excited to be alive. Yes I have ups and downs but thats is what makes me have so much fun. Everyone should learn to find joy in simple small things.  

He Waits for Me

I'd like to have that feeling
of knowing the words are true
hearing them whispered soflty
"I love you."

I have so many memories
of someone I've yet to meet.
Who is the one I'm dream of?
Maybe you.

A lot of people know my past with relationships. I have been heartbroken, I was bitter, bla bla bla. Well the sun has finally come out. No this does not mean I'm in love. I haven't even met "the one".

It all started with the reading of Frankenstien. We talked so much about how people need love. No one really wants to be alone. All the monster wanted was a female friend to love and to be loved by in return. The point hit me that no matter how bad I wanted to push love away, I truely want to find it.

The second time is hit me was when I sang the words to this song. It is called Brazillia. Our jazz choir is singing it and I got the solo. I sang the word, I knew I believed them especially the first verse which is

"Someday, I know I'll find him
the one who's ment for me.

Our future is just a vision
that lives only in my mind.
But someday we'll be together.
We'll leave the past behind.

Each day will bring me closer
to finding the one I love,
Finding the one that I'm
Deaming of."

It just took one time singing these words for my heart to latch on to them.

The third time this hit me was when I was listening to my seminary teacher tell his engagement story. He smiled and had so much joy beaming from his face. The way he talked about his beautiful wife made me want that. I knew I wanted a man to talk about me that way and begin to blush at the thought of us (Maybe not exactly but something like that).

And finally, when I watch the batchelor fanally! The proposal just took my breath away. You could see the love in the guy's eyes. He could not have had anymore love for this woman. Then it showed the couple now and they were having a few issues, but they were working to over come those problems.

I guess what I'm saying is, that no matter how much you get hurt, you can't give up. That's what I learned. I'm not saying I want to go run off and get maried or date someone right away. I just think it's rediculous to be so bitter about it anymore. The past is that and not every single person is going to hurt me. I need to finally let go. Let go of the hurt I had. Let go of the bitter love hating. Let go of him. I don't NEED a man to be happy. I need a man that compliments me.
And that is my new take on "love".

"Forever young"-Alphaville

  It was like a movie. The clock was stopped at 10.0 the score was 41 to 44 in our favor and The Kory Koerperich was at the free throw line. I realized we had it! In time the game was over. WE WON!! The team was celebrating on the court, each cutting off a piece of the net. Tears streamed down everyone's face. Then as I watched Kory as his dad hugged him, it truly was the hug the world could feel. That is when I realized these are the moments we live for. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING could have brought me down at this moment. The crowd was screaming through the halls. Never had I felt so much Holbrook pride. My dad picked me up and shouted your a champion! I can still feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins. I have never been so speechless in my life.

  My family went to dinner and after, my brother in-law and I were driving home. All I could do was smile and nod. Then my brother in-law said something that hit me, "I still remember when I was getting ready for my state game and just like that, I am here." Right then my life came into perspective. I knew that I couldn't stay here in this moment forever. No later than a minute this song played.

"Forever young, i want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever forever

Forever young, i want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever

Forever young"

  I know I can't be seventeen forever. Soon I will be all wrinkled up sitting in my rocking chair looking back at all the "good times". And that game will always be as clear as day. When I look back on all my trials and hardships, it's moments like those that make it 100% worth it. So I want to say thank you.

  Thank you to the Team. Thank you to Coach Mendosa and Delmar. Thank you Dr. Koerperich. Thank you fans, refs, announcers. Thank you Fountain Hills and your height! Thank you family and friends. Thank you God, thank you for creating the perfect moment to keep me Forever Young.