He Waits for Me

I'd like to have that feeling
of knowing the words are true
hearing them whispered soflty
"I love you."

I have so many memories
of someone I've yet to meet.
Who is the one I'm dream of?
Maybe you.

A lot of people know my past with relationships. I have been heartbroken, I was bitter, bla bla bla. Well the sun has finally come out. No this does not mean I'm in love. I haven't even met "the one".

It all started with the reading of Frankenstien. We talked so much about how people need love. No one really wants to be alone. All the monster wanted was a female friend to love and to be loved by in return. The point hit me that no matter how bad I wanted to push love away, I truely want to find it.

The second time is hit me was when I sang the words to this song. It is called Brazillia. Our jazz choir is singing it and I got the solo. I sang the word, I knew I believed them especially the first verse which is

"Someday, I know I'll find him
the one who's ment for me.

Our future is just a vision
that lives only in my mind.
But someday we'll be together.
We'll leave the past behind.

Each day will bring me closer
to finding the one I love,
Finding the one that I'm
Deaming of."

It just took one time singing these words for my heart to latch on to them.

The third time this hit me was when I was listening to my seminary teacher tell his engagement story. He smiled and had so much joy beaming from his face. The way he talked about his beautiful wife made me want that. I knew I wanted a man to talk about me that way and begin to blush at the thought of us (Maybe not exactly but something like that).

And finally, when I watch the batchelor fanally! The proposal just took my breath away. You could see the love in the guy's eyes. He could not have had anymore love for this woman. Then it showed the couple now and they were having a few issues, but they were working to over come those problems.

I guess what I'm saying is, that no matter how much you get hurt, you can't give up. That's what I learned. I'm not saying I want to go run off and get maried or date someone right away. I just think it's rediculous to be so bitter about it anymore. The past is that and not every single person is going to hurt me. I need to finally let go. Let go of the hurt I had. Let go of the bitter love hating. Let go of him. I don't NEED a man to be happy. I need a man that compliments me.
And that is my new take on "love".