Vulnerable...Impossible.

So it happened. I actually fell in like. I hate this feeling because I have no idea if he likes me back.

      Vulnerable. I've never felt this vulnerable in my life. He caught my eye at church my first day there. Yeah he was cute and all but it was just a little crush. Then amazing happened. He sat next to me in church. I was doodling on a peice of paper. He asked me to draw him a picture. So I did. Kowing this was my shot, I wrote my number on the back. I also wrote, "You should probably ask me out seeing as I drew this for you." =) Normally I'm not this forward. I just flirt and mess around with a guy till I scare them off. Which is okay because honestly I haven't really truly liked someone like this since Markos. I normally beat around the bush or feel...unsure. (I like them, I don't like them, I like them, Maybe not so much). It's usually just a game.

           This feeling is so different. After I hung out with him it wasn't like a dream. I didn't feel all on "cloud nine" and magical. I felt like...something real.  The only problem is...I was not expecting this. I was not ready. I've been fine just fiddling around with love/like or whatever it is. But it has me this time. I'm so scared. There is a huge chance that I'll get hurt but for some reason I'm okay with that. I'm putting it all on line because if something ends up working, it's worth the risk. I'm scared. I am vulnerale.  I am in-like. 

Please if you haven't listened to the words of the song go back and do so. because they explain better than I can.