Shake it Off

   Has anyone ever asked you, if you were to get in a car accident and die what song would you want to be playing. Well, last night at about ten p.m. I felt a strange popping feeling under my foot as i was driving to my parents house. I had been listening to this song on repeat for about an hour now and quickly turned off the music when I felt something strange was a bout to occur. My car has broken down many of times so I'm pretty good at handling this situation. I took my foot off the gas, turned my hazards on, and coasted to the nearest stopping place (which happened to be the school my parents work at). As I was coasting I called my mom and said, "Hey mom, I think my car is exploding." I finally came to a stop I sat in my car thinking what is it this time. Them my car started to smoke like crazy! I looked at the engine thing and it want's overheating or anything. So I gathered most of my valuables and stepped out of the vehicle. as I got out a car pulled up asking if I was alright. I told him how I had called my parents and that everything was fine. I turned back around and my hood lit up in flames quickly engulfing the entire front of my car. The man that was there called 911 and asked me if I got everything out that I needed. I looked through my purse to find I had left my wallet in there. 

It felt like I was standing there watching my car, not only my car, my friend, my partner in crime, my trusty(not entirely) transportation, my Spitfire, burn for eternity. All that time spent trying to make the piece of crap car look like an awesome ride. All those nights I stuffed her full of friends. All those nights it carried couches to mystical destinations. My perfect spot for star gazing. My Car was GONE. The cop cars finally started to poor into the parking lot. Then came my family. Everyone watching Spitfire go out with a BANG! literally. 

Now let's rewind about 4 hours earlier. I was having a really weird day. I was thinking about this whole engaged thing again. I was realizing how scary it is that I am about to be sealed to one person for eternity. I was feeling overwhelmed. I know getting married to Justine is the right thing. I KNOW for a fact he is the one I am meant to be with. I was just frustrated with God that it happened so soon. I thought It happened so fast, Do I Really love him? I drove to school listening to this song on repeat. "If you really want to shake it of, you got to rearrange it. JUST STOP AND SHAKE IT OFF." I went do dance and it was when I was on my way to my parent's house I was texting my mom and two of my sisters ( yes while driving..BAD BAD) dramatically about all my problems/fears.. Then my car caught fire. 

It's crazy how all the worries of the world vanish as soon as a catastrophe hits. The crazy thing is that even though my mom, my sister, and my brother in-law were there, I still didn't feel ok. I figured as soon as my dad showed up i'm be more calm inside. Nope. The only person I wanted needed was Justin. Then the song echoed in my head, "Love love, don't use love. Love love, don't lose love." I can not wait to be married and sealed for eternity to the one I love. 

Lessons I learned last night are one, DO NOT BE FRUSTRATED AT GOD!! Two, GRAB your wallet (luckily it didn't burn, I really don't know how). Three, try not to get so attached to things. And four, it's ok to need people. 

After time had warn away, the shock hit. I AM BLESSED. My mom started in with her what ifs. Now that I think about it, I could have had the kids in my car. I could have driven home and the fire would've been in my driveway. My wallet should've burned. The school parking lot could've not been there. I could be burnt up in a car. I could be dead. I could be dead. 

Oh How Great God IS!!

Spitfire 

Rest In Peace 

1996-2012

I love you forever you were a great car.